Apr 2018
I feel I have to be
bigger than life
flinging myself into
the arms of the world
with total abandon
Lest I be swallowed up
by unnoticed detail
****** into the eye
of the storm
that place of no happening
ringed by my frenzy
I have to be the one
who supplies enthusiasm
who lights candles
decorates
tries to make packages
pretty
with curly ribbons
fancy paper
maybe even sparkles
The frou-frou stuff
If I didn't
what then?
For holidays
we'd eat
at a naked table
(and I don't mean
picnic fare)
our food on paper plates
without
a single eyebrow
raised
it's tough to be
outnumbered
"outgunned"
by testosterone
though over the years
I've toned down
the frou-frou just a bit
I smile
do what I can
and live my life
like the Little Red Hen
bigger than life
flinging myself into
the arms of the world
with total abandon
Lest I be swallowed up
by unnoticed detail
****** into the eye
of the storm
that place of no happening
ringed by my frenzy
I have to be the one
who supplies enthusiasm
who lights candles
decorates
tries to make packages
pretty
with curly ribbons
fancy paper
maybe even sparkles
The frou-frou stuff
If I didn't
what then?
For holidays
we'd eat
at a naked table
(and I don't mean
picnic fare)
our food on paper plates
without
a single eyebrow
raised
it's tough to be
outnumbered
"outgunned"
by testosterone
though over the years
I've toned down
the frou-frou just a bit
I smile
do what I can
and live my life
like the Little Red Hen
Around Christmas time I was having a conversation with my doctor (who is a female). She asked about Thanksgiving so I said "it was nice" or some such then went on to tell her that I had put candles on the table and was bemoaning the fact that I could find no means with which to light them. One of my two sons said "Oh, we can just pretend they're lit." (The other and my husband agreed.) She understood completely, said she had spent an entire day decorating for the holidays. Son came home - nothing. Husband - nothing. They didn't even notice. Her daughter came home and could hardly stop exclaiming her pleasure and excitement over the decorations!!
