One of the worst feelings is when
You can’t tell if you’re in love with someone anymore
When you like to be with them
But
You’re just as happy all alone
When you get so used to each other
You don’t even say “I love you” anymore
It’s just... assumed
But what if you don’t love them
What if you’re just convincing yourself that you can’t leave them
But it’s just because you don’t want to be alone again
That for the past 7 months you’ve just been glad to have someone
It didn’t matter who really
Except
This other person
Still is in love with you
Even though you aren’t pretty
Or smart
Or all that special
What if you’re just using this person because you know they like you despite all of your flaws
You’re afraid if you leave that no one else will care about you like they did
But
Despite all of this
You still don’t know if you actually love them