Standing in front of the mirror
All i see is fat
Ugly
Failure

Standing in front of my family and friends
I have confidence in me
I'm happy
I have the biggest smile

Standing on my own
I feel sad
Lost
Broken

Just because i seem ok....it does not mean that i don't struggle.
Behind my smile is pain.....hurt.....anguish.
I am not the girl i used to be.....but i am me.
Whether i succeed or not.....i will always be a failure.
I cannot believe in happiness
I cannot believe in hope
Strength
Success
I am sad
I am no longer who i used to be.....but i am me.