I shut my eyes,
When nail being hammered on my head.
Tears don't drop down,
But my heart still cries.

Agony consumes me,
Pushing me into dark.
I don't want to slip,
But my feet are out of control.

You think that I gave up,
You're wrong.
Deep within I'm still fighting,
Only it doesn't have a semblance.

I failed to recognize you,
But that wasn't me.
My real me was in a world,
Where it was captivated.

I know that you all weep,
You all suffer, 'cause of me.
Believe me,
I don't want to give you pain.

How hard I try to free myself,
I am tucked back.
Apologises that I make,
Become abuses when it reaches you.

My hesitation may seem to you,
My lack of trust in you.
But it's my fear,
That anything could take me away from you.

Part of me wants to wake up,
Tell you that I am fighting,
But I am not able to,
Since there is no light on that path, to walk.

Don't give up on me,
And I know you won't.
Trust me,
And so will I.

One day I would,
be the same happy person as before,
Enjoying life with you,
Forgetting all our pains.

But till then have faith in Him,
Me and yourself.
I will fight with help of yours.
And life will give us a fruitful gift
For our hard work.