Being told your ill
from a child,
born with
internal conflict
and confusion

Head spinning
into constant
trances, dream
states.

Brain jumps,
going into a loop
mind adjusts
and increases volume

TEMPO, TEMPO
Loud irregular thoughts
echo and magnify
wish it would shut up
can hear voices
telling me things
I do not need to know.

At eight always a loner:
mute and on edge,
taunted in school
for being slow.

What people forget
is that I know a lot
of things, my mind
never forgets
******* and lies
people spread.

The body defends
fortress of steel,
brings on flight and fight
anger rages quick,
feel like a ticking clock.

Thumping out aloud,
brain is now intense
starts slow, quicker then
fast before you know it
lands the final blow,
before it drifts in and out
zoning and hearing peace.