The last 10 days have passed by in a blur
A blur i do not wish to relive
I wake up at nine and am greeted by a scowl
a look of indifference or just a long list of chores
domestic duties
endless errands
messy mundane nonsense
It leaves me aching and miserable at the end of the night
24 hours seem too little now
I feel like I should have my shoes on at all times
perhaps even wear then to bed
Running from one point to another
but it never seems to end
I spend the days doing all kinds of things
but there is little to no room for the things that matter to me
Sleep
Oh how I miss you!
Homework and studying
I am sorry I have to complete you in a rush or neglect you for days at a time
Showers
You are either too cold or too fast
simple things but they are usually out of my reach
When will I be able to go home and sleep
Not like the dead
but in sheer peace
feel the ***** of slumber slowly inject itself in my mind
and dull my senses for the next 8 hours
Let it consume my overworked brain with dreams
not the ones filled with demons violence and blood dark as ink
but the ones with with color, laughter, smiles, and bliss
I am just about ready to leave this reality
filled with people I do not want to see
filled with tedious tasks and objectives that test my patience and adds more grey to the red in my hair
filled with unless chatter when my brain screams for silence
golden comforting silence
Be free of pain, loneliness, and overwhelming confusion that has taken over my life
I long to be part of a new world
A new reality
I have already lost control once
Now I fear that I will loose myself completely in this mayhem of madness as well