This time I am older This time I am smarter This time my walls are weaker When I try to build them back up Like I have done for so many years the things seep through And the walls swell from the rising pressure
the things the things the spidery wet things
I thought I did it I thought I solved it I thought I won
But here they are once more And I am quite unsure what to do
Retreat or attack Neither work here Something I did not know Till this time
In small doses maybe But ultimately Both make everything turn to ash and ultimately Only feeds them
Stillness. If you hold me If you hug me If you say one word to me I will drown in tears.
If I am still, I will die Iām quite sure of it.
So instead Each day I die only a little slowly Bits at a time
This time I know why This time I know how I This time. I know the only person who can really help me is me