No point in hiding it.
I've been through 6 relationships;
5 broken hearts;
3 "It's not your fault, it's mine."
(GOD isn't that a lie)

I... Pretend like I can't get into peoples heads.
I guess that's the best way to say it.
I want to be friends but you can't ask for that you know?
So I ask them out, see them happy, and then... Then I see a part of them that scares me (or worse yet I see a part of me I'm still scared of)
And sometimes I want to use it against people, manipulate them.

But I stop myself.

So when I say,
It's not you
It's me.

I ******* mean it.