if you throw a plate on the floor
and say
"i'm sorry"
it doesn't become whole again

if you ****** someone
with blood on your hands
and soul
and say
"i'm sorry"
they don't come back from the dead

if you call me a ***
and then say
"i'm sorry, but it's true"
you'd be lying

i've never had a boyfriend
i've never been kissed
i've never held hands with a boy
i've never whispered sweet nothings
into someone's ear

but yes,
i am most definitely a ***.