i run away from a fight like prey running from its hunter
i sit in my car, and wonder where i should go
to feel this lonely, it's a feeling i never wanted to know
but i put my car in drive and speed off anyway
i hit the freeway, to a sea of tail lights and darkness
not knowing where i'll end up
no place feels like home,
i don't feel like i belong anywhere, anymore
i just want a place where i can feel safe
a place i feel warm, a place i feel loved
i don't want to feel like my mind is a prison anymore
i don't want to feel like everyone is my competition anymore
i just want to be me
but lately, me feels just so ordinary
like anyone's company would be much better than my own
i listen to the same music,
play the same games,
a plain jane on the outside
i feel like i have nothing to offer the world around me
every time i think i'm doing better
my brain talks me out of it and i'm hanging by a thread again
i just want it all to stop hurting
i just want to be loved unconditionally
without fear someone will see my flaws and plain-ness
and run away without looking back