I miss you
I've only had you in my dreams
the way others have come to me
before showing up in my life
but you remain elusive
I miss you

a thousand times I've held your hand
a thousand moonlit walks
And each time I wake to find you gone
Never having been there at all

a loss I have no right to feel
and yet I miss you as if you were real
I thought I found you
over and over I thought I found you

I awake and my heart splits anew
all the Lost loves
the broken hearts
all those years of Love found and fumbled
looking for you
and when I wake without you the pain cuts just as deep
as any of those lost loves

Or more than all of them
combined

maybe they didn't hurt as much
Because I felt never truly safe
like I do when you hold me
under the stars in my dreams
Who are you

I held my son so many nights
so many nights before he was born
I held him in my dreams

and then I held him in my arms
and I recognized him

so when do you come
I feel you so close
I feel your soul
now I just need your Your mind
your heart
Your hands
your arms around me

In this place
in this life

I worry you are lost
lost to me
An echo
a memory
a reflection
from a Time I can't access
thoughts and love I share
but are not mine
A ripple