Look, i don't know why i feel
The way that i do,
I wish i had an answer as to why--
Why i feel fragile, and weak..
Why i always feel so out of tune
I feel fine one day and the next i feel
I feel so out of it..
My heart pounds, my breathing quickens
And I'm clenching my jaw to keep from
Screaming and choking back words..
I move as fast as i can to reach
a clear so i can let them out
To let the tears roll down
Sometimes i don't even make it
And i have no explanation why this happens
It happens when I'm alone,
while I'm speaking over the phone,
When I'm with you im okay I can speak
But something takes over me
And i feel lifeless
Empty but with all the emotions
That someone threw out and latched
to the nearest body to control
I feel like a puppet stuck with a never-ending
Understanding why i can't breatheeeeee
In moments like thissss
Will i ever get over feeling panicky
Or will i always be stuck with my anxiety?
  - M.