Hm .

Sadness something you think I don’t go through cause I don’t display it
Day to day I fake it
I should be in a movie I play happiness like a gem
I never present my emotions to them
Whole time I’m drowning and you’d never know
Keep my feelings down on the low
No one knows of the pain the runs deep
Or how at night how my thoughts creep
my mind goes crazy and I can’t sleep
When I’m out late at night driving and it hits me
Going 100  the speed limit is 60
Blast music to cancel out my pain
Trying to clear the clouds and the rain
I’ve isolated myself to the point to where I can’t repent
Wonder why my heart has these big dents
Maybe cause to not a soul on earth can I vent
One person to be my safe place God has not sent
I’ve tried to confide in myself only to make me feel so alone
When I’m tryna keep my heart from turning to stone
Drowning in the ocean
of my own emotions
When I just need to be saved
But my pride comes in a wave
It hurts to let someone in
I feel so vulnerable in the end
something that I want but my pride won’t let me possess
Cause it sees it as a threat
My head tells me no
But my heart truly knows
I’m in need to share my love
On my heart I push and shove
I have so much affection bottled up inside till my heart hurts
And endless tears fall from my face down on my shirt
Feelings booming till my hearts feels as if it may bust out my chest
Is it bad to have this much love trapped up or am I blessed
Not ready for a relationship but ready for a love a trust an understanding
Ready to be appreciated and feel outstanding
Someone to keep it funky w/ at the end of the day
Showing real feelings and not the fake love I’ve been portrayed
At this point now my thoughts are scattered
Ig it’s cool noone knows so it doesn’t matter