God I think I'm lame pretty much most of my time. I wish I could tell him how I feel but I am shy. I fear rejection and what is on his mind. Why doesn't he love me like I love him? My face turns blue with deception. I have an obsession, with his personality, his individuality. I can't stop to think will he love me. I had to ***** things up. I had the chance to be with him. And now all I can do is think about him. My chances with him are slim. My heart aches, I gave him a heartbreak. I want to end this pain like putting a stake through a vampire's heart. End it now before bad things begin to start. He doesn't need to know I love him more than I did when we first met. I just bet, he won't feel that way.