Grief makes you want to blend in with darkness in mindless fixation
Even welcome the evacuation
of feeling
'cause that too is sensation
Thoughts and images reeling
Stewing in a cauldron of frustration
This ...
...This ...
This...
Just ain't right.
This ain't just, right?
The universe got it wrong this time
Universe - all just is
this quiz
WHY???
WHY???
That eternal query
Whose answer stays buried
Germinating confusion
In flashes of illusion
Nay but it is...
Real conclusion.
We lose some
We had some
Wasn't yours, um
Give it back
Time is up.
Done.
End of track.
Run
Run those tears that trapped in
Those fears
Run those tracks that trace
All the years
That are no more.
Those tears that bore
Through ducts of memories
Holed up in store
Eroding the core of gladness
Fueling flames of madness
This grief
I have
Just let me blend in with this darkness .. .


-Haakim Understanding 9/2016