There are days where i feel like the skies were made for me
But days like this one,
I want to crawl back into the depths of my warm blankets
And bury my head under my pillow
Because my migraines are simple examples to tell you
Just a little of what pain i feel.
I'm sorry i wasn't good enough for your golden medals and
Classic trophy set.
They say “brains before beauty”
But i'm smart for all the wrong reasons
And i'm not beautiful without makeup
Caked onto my less-than average face.
I'll never be matched to your beautiful standards
And your white picket fences.
Please excuse my lack of popularity,
i'm just a void in the shadows trying to make it  
In your all too busy world.
I care for you, maybe a little too much.
but your smiles disappeared and your eyes became dull,
I'm sorry for caring for you. I just want to make sure you are okay.
You don't smile, or laugh anymore.
You keep your head down or maybe it's whenever i'm around.
I've been told i'm clingy, annoying even.
But i'd give my happiness up for you to smile again.
Not those fake close lipped smiles,
The one where you feel as if your face is breaking and
All you can do is keep smiling because you don't want that
Feeling to go away.
You never ask me if i'm okay,
And that's all i ever ask you.
What happened to the stars in your eyes?
I'm sorry that it hurts you to love me.
-au