i don't understand how i can feel so strongly for you when i don't even have enough willpower to get out of bed . and i don't know what its like to truly be committed to someone but i do know what it feels like to have someone you might possibly love taken away from you . i know what its like to be sitting in chair and having to listen to my parents say im not allowed to see him anymore . and if i cried , i would be beat . and i was beaten . because i cried . to the point i couldn't see . i was so sore from being hit that i have a limp today . but if love is this painful , i would do it all over again if it means being able to keep you as a person alone . this world is hell . and i'm sorry for making yours worse