your sympathy is not enough
your empty
"how are you feeling" questions
followed by "tough it out you're strong"
is not enough
i am crying
head tilt worshiping the porcelain god
but i am sober
i am a ******* projectile and these are not some high tech effects
i am trying to survive but i am dying
i am to afraid to ask you to hold my hand
or rub my back
or rub my arm cause it's sore from this morning
because imagining that you wont do it
it much better than
asking
hoping
and being disappointed
i see my body changing
this is not worked out this is forced out
because my body now hates me
and Mary Kay cant cover that up
and i guess when I leave team natural
to see what Amber Rose is talkin about
then the infamous rabbit bun won't cover it either
and i am strong all day
but right now i am praying
infront of this porcelain god
hoping that my God can hear my defeat
and will send you to save me
because i am to afraid to ask you
i am the strong one
and if this is to much for me
this is to much for them
but i am weak with you
so be strong for me
let me lay my head on your chest just to hear a heartbeat
let me know that you care and are scared just like me
hold my hand
not because i asked you
but because you realize one day
you might not be able to
let me come home one day to
breakfast cooked and movies ready
just in case i cant go to class
because somedays i need you and a blanket and a comedy to make me forget
or remind me to laugh
your sympathy is not enough
what i need is your love.