It is in fact unfortunate that I do not write as much I did in the past
The past being two years ago when I first came in touch with the bigger part of me and the person I am meant to be and am becoming
But it’s not because I don’t want to
But I do write , I write within my head and being that the time I come up with my best pieces of writings are always unfolded inside the deep depths of my head when I’m occupied physically with other things, a variety of things that I can not stop what I am physically doing to pick up a pen and write
Nor am I able to pick up my phone to type I wish there was a device that could just interrupt what’s in my head being said and sometimes spoken out loud to myself , so that I may reflect it or piece it all.  together and then share it for everyone to hear
The **** I do write or say ; the unfolding of my head is soooo deep and such another person of Carmen that I do not allow to be expressed or viewed so easily if any at all. It’s a shame it’s not easier to express .
But given when I have the real time , believe it that I will one day find the time to type, speak , write all of my deeper depths of self wisdom for others to help them no, correction to assist in guiding them in finding them self but on their own trusty without someone else to thank cause all in all it would have and will have been them that made it happen and that’s what beauty.
For now it is a shame that I can not allow this to happen soon but it is meant to be that way for a bigger beauty and that day I look forward to .