I understand why they call it a crush
Because it will break every bone in your body till you lay lifeless in your bed crying
Tear stained cheeks and blood shot eyes
The thoughts of him swarming my mind of the girl I’ll never be

Never be the girl he pulls closer as we dance to a slow song
Never be the girl he lays his soft lips on whenever he can
Never be the girl who could wear his oversized sweaters when she’s cold

I’ll never be the girl she is to him
Forgetting why I even want to be his in the first place
He makes me want to blow my brains out and is the only reason I want to live at the same time

But he’s just a crush
And I’m just broken
Broken from a boy who will never love me

It’s funny how that works
He’s free from everything he’s done to me
Yet I’m stuck with it
Stuck with having to see him everyday
Stuck with this never ending hope that he’ll look at me
He doesn’t even know what he’s doing to me but he’s doing it constantly
And I’m stuck with loving him

But is it still a crush when you find yourself in love with him