mea culpa* said thrice does not
             suffice...
with that abhorring
imitation
   of a heartbeat
of a fist thumping
against the chest
in the catholic creed
recitation...
       all it takes
is to disarm, completely!

mea culpa,
       cor meum:

       my fault,
                  my heart.

oh, and the heart is
an iron maiden, heavier
than any cross to carry
onto Golgotha...

    not as frivolous as
escaping into a soul
and then into an eternity...

the heart feeds upon
the now and ever
infringing present...

           you are not allowed
to take your heart into
the grave,
                  but of course
you can take your soul...

            marble missionaries
of the parable of the camel,
seeking a needle in a haystack?

the heart remains among
the living, before the last heartbeat
beats its last...
           the soul can escape
into air,
      the body into either earth
or fire,
         but i see no reason
as to why a heart must drown
succumbing to water...
        it has to return to anima...
even if that be a shadow
  moving in c.c.t.v. example:
with no body...
          a para-reality expression
of the anima...

         some call it the "dumb"
mute of animals...

let them take up their crosses
as if they were swords,
   i know a ***** little secret
anyway...
              the heart is but an *****
with a shadow in
the shape of an iron maiden...
           point being:
              will you be able to clench
your teeth
             when among others,
sensing, a murdering solitude
that encompasses their
fear of the cliff edge?
        
     once the armies of the world
attacked civilians,
   civilians morphed into armies...
the same discipline applies
to soldiers, as it does to civilians...
which so many of the current
wars, are so unspectacular...
       to be a citizent is akin
to the same rigorous training
as any solider...
         rigour discipline,
   obedience, allegiance,
    otherwise known as as: work ethic.

modern soldiers are ronin,
outcasts...
          why is the modern civilian
to pity a veteran?
  when there is a civilian army
that needs persuading?
  
  terrible things have happened when
armies stopped
    playing by the laws of the sport
of war,
               akin to football...
          and took to dropping their
shields and swords, picking
up bodies, calling their once mighty
tools of the sport, nothing as noble
as excalibur, but? collateral damage.