We sat there in silence.
I thought he might hear my heart beating.
We stood up and he caressed me in his arms.
We were at our favorite spot, right on the edge of the mountain, where, with one step, we would fall.
And so we did. Our bodies falling through the air, we were still holding tightly to one another.
As we fell, the wind choked me and I couldn't speak,
I couldn't tell you all the things I had wanted to say for so long.
We fell onto the rocky stones and sand.

I felt like we were sea glass.
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Being overwhelmed by our feelings, just as the sea glass becomes overwhelmed by the waves.
It gets crushed and broken and never gets a chance to be more than that.
We laid there, and as I felt my heart weakening and my lungs collapsing, I thought to myself.
I didn't want to tell you all of those things that I wished to tell you as we were falling.
As I look at you lying there, short of breath, I know that they wouldn't mean anything to you. You have your eyes closed and you’re shouting someone’s name that isn't mine. And so I lie there and let my body shut down.

*Feeling as broken as sea glass might not be so bad.