if i were to write any autobiography i'd like, i'd write the one, that begins with a biographer that knew no first person sources, including mine... but i'd also like to learn a mourning of some sort, that didn't have to be expected of me, cheap like a tattoo... it would be nice to not have blamed for certain things; namely? the more apparent my dead twin becomes, through what's called a proverb: lies have short legs... up to and including turning 30, and still the ******* taboo!!!!!!!!!!!! talk now is impossible among the slavs, just, gestures... postulates or hierarchal studies that 200+ years from now will not allow: why?! if labour jobs will be gone, who says these people have soul / any impeding argument worth hearing, let alone a soul? automate them! spew the same old load of *******... can you imagine, i beat the a.i. plagiarism bot in a sociology example, by using thesaurus better than the programmers could have envisioned? i had the human capacity to use a thesaurus with more ingenuity... too bad for the programmers... no good for me... in my 2nd year, you could live a good lot for 30 quid a week.... oh i still have a 10+K debt... but the rule is: you only start paying it back once you earn 15+K a year... no offer... no dividends... or as i like to call it: can you, really, really, really, doubly really: complicate confiscating meaning with the simple artefact of making a coin flip?