depression comes and goes in episodes, in waves washing up the beach of my consciousness leaving behind shells of memories broken hearts and bruised ribs sunshine laughter, turned bittersweet and *****-stained porcelain toilets
i collect shells hold them close to my heart despite their broken, jagged edges scratching thin protective layer hang them up in the skies to act as moons and the tide gets rougher heartbeat becomes irregular as tears make way for beads of blood steadily filling my lungs until i am swimming in my own misery,