this day i'm having?
it's the kind when i feel like i am the stupidest
and least creative
and least talented human being in the world
(and my heart weighs ton upon ton)

and i'm not sure about anything -
i'm not sure about the boy i loved yesterday
and i hope to god he'll be the boy i love tomorrow.

and i can't do anything
except sit
and feel tiny.

this day i'm having?
when i feel like
everyone is against me and
nothing is certain and
everything is terrible and
how the **** am i going to make it through the next hour, much less the next day?

this day i'm having?

****.
you wouldn't believe it.