I knew it
My past will be too hard for you to accept
I might never be as honest again as I was to you
I fear that curiosity killed the cat, but honesty killed my chance

But such is my resolve,
I may have lost my chance and it will hurt you
But if it will give you a chance to a happier or brighter future
then I don't mind throwing away this worthless life of mine

Please judge me not from the choices I made
when you never knew the choices I had to choose from
It's okay if you will never accept me, I'm used to it
But please don't forget that only I, only I love you this much

Believe me,
I am not so bad, when I have someone to love and protect
And truth is, everyone will hurt you perhaps more than I did
But, you just have to find the one worth suffering for... I guess I
        wasn't the one hahaha

I at least can say I bore no ill will
when I incidentally hurt you in the past
I hurt you not for selfish reasons
but purely out of love, to give you a shot at a brighter dream

I might be a monster to you,
a self-centered one
but it does not mean I don't have a heart.
But, I became selfless for your sake.

Don't worry I'm used to this pain and rejection
Being an option and being left out
I'm sick of it, but it makes me strong
I'm used to it, but it does not mean it doesn't hurt

Such is the fate of the monster...
to fall in love with people you can never have.