I hold onto you so
tight
that my knuckles turn to
white
I cannot let go of you
of those
eyes
pulling me in like the
                                        dangerous
                                                                ­     calming
waves of the ocean
for the very reason that if I
let go
I                    
                      will                      
               ­                                   drown
you will not be there to
save me
you never have
you will watch as I
struggle to catch my breath
the lights will flicker and flare
you will stare as I fade away
choking out those three little three words
i                   love           you                                                    
only to endure silence
echoing more
than any violence I have ever encountered
tearing me to pieces
as those treacherous eyes whispered to me
what your lips were
never quite brave enough to say
i
       dont
                  love
                             you
                                       anymore
                                                             .