Am I okay?
I feel okay.
Do I look okay?
No well then I guess I'm not okay.
I am not okay I mean I look okay...



For I hear the things people don't want to say I hear the past and the voices yelling at me telling me to just go die there give up telling me I'm not good enough and its not okay I guess and I wish I was okay but sometimes I feel as though I will never be okay...


I want to be okay I want to be the one who looks okay everyday I am sad I try to pull a smile and some days it works and others it don't...


Did you know they yell at me everyday?
Everyday I hear the sounds of death the tormented screams getting louder as they talk and each day I want to end the voices so if you ask if I'm okay here is what I'm going to say....

Im okay but I'm not okay cause if I was okay I would be the death of the pain and the pain is not okay...


I just want to say Im sorry I do want to be okay and I want to be okay with you but I see my past and all I see is hell living hell and I want to get over the abuse and I just can't I want to get over the divorce but I can't all I can do is pray...



All I can do is say I'm not okay.