I keep telling myself that being sad is a huge crime, because I have everything I could ever ask for in order to be happy. Yet I feel like something is missing. Like if there's a gap waiting to be filled. It's killing me, because despite all the loving friends and family I have, that gap is the thing that is keeping me from being truly happy. And the thing that makes me more confused is that I don't feel it during the day, it's at 3 am when I'm dying. I guess you can say this is my biggest crime.