In the dept of disparity​ i drown...
I don't ******* care...
I am alone evermore...
No one there to keep my heart beating...except myself...
Bleeding through my eyes...
a cascading burning desire of pain...
Everyone filling me with lies...
Yet i believe them all...
I **** myself down and allow myself to believe in the fantasy...
Allow myself to accept the fallacy that there's hope.... Yet there isn't...
its a shattered unicorn of a marage in a dessert of a optimistic fool...
I expect too much...
Hoping for love but failing always failing always drowning...
But **** it if im meant for this pain ill use it...ill be it.... ill rage in it...
If i end up alone so ******* what...
im meant to be there anyways...
I am already there...the darkness consumes me but im tired of fighting the darkness...let it consume me...let it roll in my fingers...let it ooze from my pores...let it Fill my eyes... let it flow in my veins and consume me...let the darkness be my name let is define me yet be my ******* *****...
The rage is there...
Not allow to be released...
always in control...
always one foot in the circle one foot out...
I try to step in all the way but the min i do the circle moves...
I am shut out...
Always reaching for a happy ever after not realizing its the true brothers grimm...
Always reaching for a hand...
Yet scared to hold my palm up...
**** that hand **** that palm i will hold darkness in my hands...the rage will force itself through my knuckles into my fingers as i jab it through someones face...
I am angry...
I am filled....
I am alone....
I was always alone...always