false love
is feelings
conveyed
through phone screens
is a grave
only dug low
into the ground
of the walls
you put up
to avoid pain
yet you're keeping
it inside
you
to rot
you

false love
is expecting the world
to shower you with
adoration
expecting
light to beam from their
eyes when they gaze your way
that you are everything
to
them

false love
is parents who
hold you but slap you
who curse you but
"its because I love you"
who beat you until your
body and brain are blue
until you believe
you're unlovable
and an abomination
the power of their words
and actions
now you own
as your own
what they taught you
you express within you
and onto others

false love
is a human being
who can hold you
touch you
be inside you
make you feel bliss upon bliss
and watch you walk away
without batting an eyelid
who can wrap you in their arms
and think of someone else
who will look past you
and not at you
who feel nothing
yet tells you nothing of this

false love
is friends
who are only there
for parties
where the ***** is flowing
where it eventually flows back
out from their mouths
leaving you to clean their mess
when you ask for help
they say they're too busy
******* your resources
until you are empty
until they are full
to siphon from the next
and the next
what they will never understand
is their hearts are hollow
and always will be

false love
is believing love
comes from others
loving yourself
is selfish
validation and appreciation
must be from them
and not you
hop from one to the other
hoping they can fill your cup
and smother you with
the beauty that is
acceptance