crystalline hatred
an obstruction in my veins
it pumps through my heart,
more familiar than my own crimson blood.
the black of hatred.
despicable, that's what you are
how do you live with yourself?
they say "forgive, forget"
but I can't muster up that sort of grace
i wish I could just erase
everything that created this
hate
but over time the lies they crystallize
and the pain brings no gain only more rainy days
and I long
for freedom
but how can love radiate through my being
if the hatred remains
not sugar but salt
crystalline hatred.