I hear the laughter
All around me
But it doesn't seem
To reach my heart, my soul

Everyone has that one person
That ride or die
The person they swear
Would have their back

But me?
I'm left alone
I'm left behind
Am I not worth it?
What did I do
To make me feel worthless?

God,
I call out to you
I come before you
To ask forgiveness
For whatever it is
I've done wrong
I've come to ask you
To restart my life
To give me something
To live for
To reach for
Just a little something
To keep me going on
Everyone says you're a good man
A person that
Has my life in your hands
A being
That has a path for me
But I can't see it
Everything is so dark
So lonely
I feel physically sick
To my stomach
To greet a new day.
The colors have no meaning
For me any longer.
I ask that you show yourself
(To me)
To break through
This numb montany
Help me please
My hands are out

Can someone please
Reach the **** out, (for me)?