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Jessica Feb 2018
If you cared enough
You'd see through my scar's
If you cared enough
You'd see my tears beneath the smile
If you cared enough
You'd reach out and not say another word
If you cared enough
You would've stepped in
If you cared enough
You wouldn't have turned your back
If you cared enough
You would've heard my screams
Behind that curtined off wall
If you cared enough
You would have stopped the train in time
Written for a friend of mine who took his life at 13, just because he couldn't accept that he was gay. Rip Jaay
Jessica Feb 2018
I hear the laughter
All around me
But it doesn't seem
To reach my heart, my soul

Everyone has that one person
That ride or die
The person they swear
Would have their back

But me?
I'm left alone
I'm left behind
Am I not worth it?
What did I do
To make me feel worthless?

God,
I call out to you
I come before you
To ask forgiveness
For whatever it is
I've done wrong
I've come to ask you
To restart my life
To give me something
To live for
To reach for
Just a little something
To keep me going on
Everyone says you're a good man
A person that
Has my life in your hands
A being
That has a path for me
But I can't see it
Everything is so dark
So lonely
I feel physically sick
To my stomach
To greet a new day.
The colors have no meaning
For me any longer.
I ask that you show yourself
(To me)
To break through
This numb montany
Help me please
My hands are out

Can someone please
Reach the **** out, (for me)?
Jessica Feb 2018
What is freedom?
The feeling of being free
From the fear?

What is freedom?
The ablity to reach out
And someone reaches in return?

What is freedom?
The thirst for the sky?
And it dosent come
From sucide?
Jessica Feb 2018
I don't want to try
It should be natural
Im not stupid
I know people see it
But I also know
They won't do anything about it

I want to become starshine
A piece of the heavens
To look down
On the things I never got to experience
On the people I never got to meet
On the baby that should have been mine
On that lover that was never there to be
On the joys that I never got to find

Don't cry for me
This is what I wanted, see?
I did this in peace
I did this to have another chance

I believe I'll be reborn,
Just another path we all must take
Why should I be afraid?

I wanna become starlight
To be looked at with wonder
To be the one extending peace
To be the beautiful sunlight
That Pierce's the darkness' night

They say "everything's ok in the end"
Well, I'm ok with this end
Do not cry for me
Live for me.... Honor me
See that look in someone else's eye
And give them a hug.
That's all I ask from thee
all I ask for is peace☮️
This was a release of words when depression almost got the best of me.

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