No excuse for the things I could not see
the pain in your body overwhelming you till the point that you would cringe and cry
teardrops falling as your knees gave way to pain and
where would I be?
What was I doing?
Nothing.
And then you'd feign a smile and hold close to me and tremble
just barely shaking because you were afraid that I'd find out you were in pain
and you had no right to hide it
but I have no right to know of it
your past, your present
none of that.
Seeing you close your eyes usually unblinking
trembling softly as if due to the breeze
you made me feel at ease
and where are you now?
What are you doing?
Are you all-right?
Excuse my ignorance for not knowing sooner
that which I was not meant to be informed of
sort of just
came into being
and I can't help but worry that you'll go away with the knowledge I have gained
and I'll be alone here.
Who am I to worry?
Lover, passionate kiss
Yet all the while your pain grew
and what was it to me?
What did I know?
Nothing.
Please, excuse my ignorance.
I just wish to know that you'll be fine
because everything changes in due time.