I see him I get butterflies
But I know I’m filling my heart with lies
I lie awake in my bed
Putting pretty thoughts in my head
I often think of what it could be
But then I realize it’s not my reality  
I then feel my heart deflate
I see him again and it increases my heart rate
I know I should delete these thought from my brain
However I feel I cannot refrain
It feels like I’m on a rollercoaster
Going up and down, faster and slower
I’m probably over analyzing
But no matter what I do  I always end up crying.