I have trouble opening up to people Must be hard to believe Considering I write poetry for the world to see But something about looking into the eyes of a person makes me crumble against my will
It’s hard to understand why I can’t talk to the ones I love without the voice in my head ‘No one cares’ Those three words repeated in my head over and over again The voice of the people I’ve tried to block out
I’ve had teachers forget my names in classes that I’ve attended for months I guess it explains why I’m so good at hiding It’s a skill for playing hide and seek and tag with your little cousins But in the real world it’s the reason I have about 3 social skills
It’s easier to make friends online I’ve done it so much I’ve forgotten how to hold a conversation with a person in real life when I can’t blame my mistakes on autocorrect I’m not afraid of my friends online being rapists or predator I find it’s more likely for the people in my everyday life to be them instead
I can’t use the excuse of being a small town girl tryna make it big Because I grew up in the city were three homeless men were found dead in the past week Maybe that’s why I have trouble talking to new people Because I don’t want to be another unidentifiable body laying lifeless on the street I grew up on.
Because it’s easier to keep my mouth shut in class Don’t raise your hand or you’ll be targeted by everyone who got the answer wrong Maybe that why I over share my life online I can block the people who hate me online, but I can’t block the ones who sit next to me in math class