it's 11:56 and my thoughts bounce back to you how you entered my life as a hurricane and used me as your life preserver until the calm i was your apartment before your house i was your appetizer before your meal was it because we never kissed? all of your friends with a ******* the arm always kissed between classes, hidden behind textbooks with you to watch as you start to envy them and despise me, the one you were supposed to love i really wanted to kiss you have the out-of-body experience behind the school and have your hands on the small of my back and my barely reaching your neck as i stand on tip-toe or was it because there were other girls coming after you telling you i was a cheater (never was) i was just a kid (i was a month older than you) i was a ***** (never had my first kiss) and your ears ate up their ****** remarks like it was starving they had not be listening for months you never held my hand (didn't want to be committed?) but the truth is, you tried to seem cool, maybe you actually tried to hold on to me but did you know i cried every night because the fear of losing you started to break the cracks already placed on my delicate heart but, don't change the story... i broke up with you i had a crush on a ****, from the rich part of town, he had pretty blue eyes, like the ocean vast and mysterious but i dated an envious, power-hungry, ****, with pretty blue eyes, like the ocean devious with a current that changed