It is a possessor’s fury,
false identity
unearned aspect
of desire denied,
pursuing that
which does not want
to be pursued
by you.

So, she places you
in a friends position,
which should be enough,
even though you are
truly in love,
and you try
to be satisfied
while she tells you
about these other guys,
alcoholic abuser,
toxic users,
who gets her drunk
so they can **** her,
while you want to
hold and protect her.

One day she tells you
how great they are,
the next time you see her
they are *******,
but she just goes
right back,
and your pain grows,
transforms to rage
and turns inwards
cause you know
for her to choose
those dudes
who hurt her
over you
must mean
there is something
spectacularly wrong with you.