scrolling through three different social media websites, and hitting refresh for hours until there's nothing left to see it's listening to music and forgetting the passage of time it's being unable to sleep at four in the morning it's waking up in the afternoon with a headache and feeling empty, because you had a dream that you weren’t alone but when you woke up, there was no one there it’s asking yourself constantly if anyone would notice if you disappeared it’s forgetting that you’re real, and true, and you have needs, too it’s january, after the holidays have passed and the decorations have come down and the magic is lost it's knowing you have so much you need to do, so much you want to do, but can't find the motivation to do it it's losing your passion it's walking through hallways but feeling like you're not there it's trying to convince yourself "there's nothing wrong with me" it's going about the same routine, over, and over, and over, again. sleep, wake up, and then go to sleep again.