my heart aches and I can't tell if it's because I miss you or because while you look at me, you're dying to find a piece of her, too.

I can't bare to see anyone cup your face or love you because that would mean that it's over for us. over for me.

and I can't believe you brought her into the home we've created because now she knows where the cracks are in the foundation.

I can't believe believe I was so afraid to tell you always poured salt on open wounds in fear of seeing you go when all you did was leave anyway.

I prayed for your love every night and right when I got close enough to kiss you your feet, you walked over me and into the sunset of her eyes.

I begged for forgiveness; every night night I spent washing your feet, I failed to see that the dirt n them didn't belong to the road leading back to me.

I begged for your love all the nights I spent crying in my own arms to be forgiven because I was dreaming they were yours.

I begged for mercy since I knew I wouldn't get any from you.
and now I sit in the rubble of what we could've been, instead of basking in the love of sacrifice.