I can pretend that I
am the one you want.
But I know your heart
lies with her.

And I know that I act
so cavalier
and nonchalant.
I feel like
I am about to end
what we never were.

The truth is though,
I care more than you think.
More than just "friendship",
and not all fun and games.

But I see your face
every time I blink.
And all I want to do
is scream your name.

You make me feel
perfect.
You make me feel
like I am the only girl.

But the fact that you say
that nobody better suspect
                                             we're together,
                           makes me want to hurl.