the last thing I want you to do is leave
the first thing I want you to do is leave

it is not your fault i have these feelings for you
I will not burden you with the knowledge
of my deep deep
....

when i think of you my eyes get heavy
a smirk forms across my face like gingerbread

my chest feels like a woofer slamming to the beat of my heart

so many cliche ways of saying

i feel for you

more importantly

i do not want to affect your trajectory
your goals
art
passion

is why my heart feels plump as a plum
where it felt like stale bread less than a month ago

i count every moment with you and feel it is sacred
i wish to spit out my feelings like a crazy daisy

am i naive to think no one notices?
how i stare
smile at every word
can't keep my invisible hands
off
you

most memories have faded from me
narcotics stole my soul

you reminded me that i had one

now
i understand radiohead songs