I'm suicidal

I have thoughts everyday about how I might be better off dead

Sometimes I think about stepping into the street into oncoming traffic

Sometimes I think about swerving my car into the ditch

I promised everyone I love that I wouldnt think about this stuff anymore

But I can't keep that promise anymore

I don't wanna reach out for help

For everyone around me has helped me so **** much

I can't bother them anymore

I can't bother with life anymore

So yeah I'm suicidal

I have been for a while.