i glance over inbetween heads of people
just enough to get a look
but covered enough to hide if i get caught

almost every poem i have written is about a man
why is that
why must i fall in love with every creature i deem beautiful

why do i feel this sense of NEED to have you when
you've been in my life
less than a month

more importantly i feel the NEED for you to NEED me
WHY

more importantly
you fall in love?

only for me to crash it down?
only for me to detach
and walk away
as if i never felt a thing

why am i someone who yearns for something until they achieve it

and when it is achieved there is no use

what do i really want?