Why is it that I am weak when I cry
but strong when I hide my tears?
I have learned that my feelings
matter less depending on where I am.
When with company I must put on my mask,
but I am allowed to be depressed in private
where no one will ever find me to help.

I guess strength is determined by how well you hide away
so that you cannot possibly hurt anyone else
with your own emotions.
So I just sit here and hurt myself.