You still torment me sometimes
You with your wry smile
And demon eyes...
Mouth of tales...
Man I despise
You keep me up
And you gnaw at my being
O God
Can't he just leave my mind?
Can he vanish?
And can the thirst I have
To see him one last **** time
Be quenched
Be put to rest
I don't need to see him
I scream
What is he doing
Is he okay
Is he with her
Questions run through my mind
God, i don't miss him
Not at all
But he was part of me for so long
He has a hold on me
I cling to him
At night when I have nothing else
He was my first
My first love
First kiss
First betrayal
First liar
First cheat
First heartbreak
First man to steal my innocence
And run
With no mercy
No shame
No regret
You have a hold on me
And you broke me
Broke me down
And cut me deeper
These wounds
They stay
And the pound
They've numbed
But every now and again
They burn like hell
And tonight it was one
Of those hell nights
Burn baby burn
I hate you
I truly do
Let go of me