i'm sorry i haven't written in so long...
putting it all down in pen makes it that more true...
for me to tell you that i'm starting to go through the without...
from inside me gasping for that breath of fresh and new...

i don't need you anymore. i don't want you anymore.
but it's already too late for you isn't it??
signed in ink across your infatuated heart.
...you're ****** committed.

and i'm ****** *******. when will i ever learn and grow.
from this ever-lasting embarrassment of attaching yet another...
to experience another agonizing and analyzing phase of being together.
it would have been better if you broke my heart.

then i wouldn't have to feel so guilty and betrayed...
by my own misconception of what is really change of heart.
without your empty promises and quirky remarks...
i might enjoy the train wreck we seem to be becoming.

take it from me, you don't want to be part of this.
because the change coming from within...
will be the better judgement of us both...
and i'm already suggesting that i'm going without.