The sun it rises I drink coffee out of a yellow mug Dreaming of lizards and anxiety Like I'm cutting down branches of branches.
My mind wanders to you from time to time I imagine you Red faced from a deep nap On your couch After eating vegan cheese Beet hummus At least I know I tried with all my might.
Some women say we both benefitted Some women didn't care that you screamed at me Into the wide open Some women didn't want to hear my side Of the story Some women picked on me in the moments Where they felt I was young and silly Though I was always sitting at that same table With just as much to contribute.
I never said one bad word Of them and their antagonistic tendencies When it was me in your bed almost everyday.
You sang along with an invisible choir It made them feel bad to see a beautiful young woman I was pushing them away I'm the millennial mountain I'm an actress turned filmmaker I'm who they wished they could have been.
You and the choir would echo to my deaf ears.
I never said one bad word Until it was all over and done.
I suspect I'll be healing from all those words All those fits in bed Where we laid our heads For quite some time.
Because thats not who I am I don't reap the cause from tearing anyone down And I'm always the first to take in scrutiny Though there are those that think I might be bogus With my glamor And Southern background.
Its taken me so long To come to terms with it all A new dear friend asked me "So how did you become who you are now growing up in the deep south." No one ever thinks to ask me such questions So when they do I look off into the distance Warm and glad To finally answer.
There is much to do Gotta get back to it Flying on planes and constantly packing bags I handed my card to a new man He has captured my interest And I entertain ideas Of it actually going well.
My friends painted my room green I've had an endless appetite Standing in the sunshine I learn and I grow Expanding out of my own territory.