although its cliche,
i think people may gain something from my dismay.

if you really knew me,
you would know,
that i smile more times than not.
that i laugh at everything.

if you really knew me
you would know,
that i dont show emotion i keep it to myself.

if you really knew me
you would know
that i have anxiety
i am in constant worry of something.

if you really knew me
you would know
that i have been depressed
and cried alone.

if you really knew me
you would know
that i hated how i look.

if you really knew me
you would know
i always feel like a failure.

if you really knew me
you would know
that i thought about ending it.

but...

if you really knew me
you would know
that today i am saved by the grace of God.


if you really knew me.
you could see that im a different person
than i used to be.

so dont lose hope.
this isnt the end.
the lights at the end of the tunnel
you just have to get back to it again.


you are fearfully and wonderfully made.
a fact not opinion.
you are beautiful
Gods creation.